Just got back from seeing New Moon for the second time. This time I went with Aeri, and it was good fun. We squealed like fangirls and made fun comments. I also went to visit my highschool today and saw my old teachers... it was great.
Except now I'm upset because I keep seeing what Edward and Bella have (yes, it's fictional, I know...). It's that perfect, wonderful love that most of us only dream about. The kind where you constantly want to be with the person, and when you're with them, it's like an internal pain goes away. Just a touch of their hand can make everything better. But nothing really goes that wrong, because all that matters is this person you love.
The stupid thing is, I've been there. I had a love just like that. I had my 'Edward' so to speak. I've known that wonderful feeling of wanting nothing but that one person to be near.
But that's over now, we barely speak to each other. And there's no way it can go back to how it was. I don't really want it to. Not with him anyway. I wish things hadn't changed in the first place, I don't want to go back. But I wish I could have that again. Is someone allowed to feel that way twice? Because if my turn's already over...
Why do things have to change?